Songbird

I'll Be Free.

"Don't you know better? Hearts are breakable. And I think even when you heal, you're never what you were before." ~ Isabelle Lightwood

It's been a long day. I need a hug, haha.

Breakdown-
Shirt:AE
Cardigan thing: AE
Shorts: AE
Flops: AE
Necklace: AE.

Wow. Just realized that, awesome. I love that store, and apparently you all can see why. hahaha. Anyway, it's been a long day, and I'm going to get back to my reading. I feel like a hermit but I love my books none the less. Trying to get my niece to love 'em is hard though. <3

Drive My Soul.

Outfit break down:
Dress: Pacific Sunwear
Cardigan: dElias
Shoes: Faithful Glitter Toms :]
Necklace: Made from various pieces.

So, philosophical me, I'm always contemplating what the hell is the point, why are we here. Yadda yadda. Trying to figure out who I am, who I want to be that sort of thing. It makes for some weird thoughts. I was going to go somewhere with this...but now I don't remember where. So I'm going to change the subject.

Love yourself, seriously.
It makes things so much easier if you don't hate your reflection. It makes things seem more achievable! You have to have confidence to try, and with out it, its hard to do much of anything but sit and wonder, so don't sit around and wonder. Go do something amazing. Not just amazing but life changing for someone. I feel like if you can touch at least one person at least once in a good way in your life, it's a life well spent.

Your Song

I'm to tired to do anything interesting, haha.

Mean

People suck, but just remember there is more than whats in front of you :]

Go left

Still Here

“It sometimes happens that a woman is handsomer at twenty-nine than she was ten years before” - Jane Austen




Experience makes you who you are, it also helps you grow as a person. A child is a child because well, they still are sheltered from the world. We grow into our own, some before others, some after. We form these figures, and for girls it seems like the older we get, the more we learn, the more beautiful we become. That the experience has made us stronger, helped us become a better person, and even at twenty nine a woman is more rich and beautiful in expeience than she was ever at the naive age of nineteen. It is hard to remember that things we stress and worry over at such a young age, really are little things. We fret and become nearly dependent on the chaos, with out it, it's like we don't know what to do. What would most of us do if we had an afternoon to just sit and do nothing? An afternoon to watch the clouds with nothing but yourself.

Its hard for us in the society we are, to take ourselves away, even for a moment from everything and just breath. We find it hard to be detached, when generations before us thought it was simple. Its funny, because we stop remembering what beautiful is. We forget that it's a smile on a face, that it might not be that size zero waist line, but the fact that you have some figure, and know how to be proud of it.

I am learning that specific lesson a hard way, I always have been. Its hard to accept your body, accept your hair, what ever it might be every woman wants to change something even if its just the way your hair flips, or the way your feet lay in flat shoes, its something, anything. These traits are often taken over by our minds, we obsess and spaz until the consume us, they become more important than the really important things. It is hard to remember that you have good things in you. I have a really hard time seeing this, its always a "Well maybe if I do this..." Or "Oh I should have said this instead, it was far more witty!" But this is not a good way to think.

You are who you are, and sure some things can be changed, but your foundation is you, the bricks that build your body are not meant to be changed that much. We are suppose to grow and evolve as people and we should always be reaching for something more than we are, but we also have to remember that we were made beautiful, for a reason. That we were meant to do something, that I was meant to do something greater. Its hard to remember in day to day, but it's important.

When I start to write something, I usually have a legitimate plan of what's going to be in it, but by the time I get around to writing it, It just becomes a lot of stuff, I mean just random stuff. But I just have a lot on my mind lately, and I did the outfit posts, like now-ish, and I realized that they might not be the best quality, but I looked at 'em, and for the first time in a bit I didn't look at them wish disdain! That's actually a really good thing. I am an observant person, I notice random details in the world with everything but myself. I probably couldn't pick my eyes or my lips out of a line up of people. It's just how I am, I never used to focus on what I looked like, and I'm trying to feel more of a person and realizing who I am, that kind of thing. I guess its a bit odd, but hey. Its me! :]

Oh! Before I forget, Outfit breakdown
Shirt; AE
Cami; AE
Tights; Target
Skirt; dElias
Shoes; Toms

Hai.

I'm tired,
but I think it's a good thing.

I got a lot done today, got a lot of frusterting stuff done with, and It's good. I finished my homework tonight, and I love that. Since I don't have class on tuesdays or thursdays I was smart, I have a lovely break. The only problem? Getting through the four/five classes (monday It's five, thanks to my Bus 101). It just seems a lot longer than it is, but I know it's not. I got so used to having my spring night class (two and a half hours) & my summer classes (Both two hours) that this 50 minute stuff? SIMPLE. It goes by pretty quickly. I just find my gaps less enjoyable than I thought they'd be. But I guess when I start actually getting more busy that will change and It will be more useful. But anyway, I have some really interesting people in some of my classes, and some people I had my Eng 101 with! She was amazing, and it's fun to have her in the same class. I sort of miss that lazy one. But I guess it holds a good part in my mind because It was my first college class, ha. I also realized that I have NO classes in the D wing, how sad! All my classes have been in the D wing so far, and now I have none! But the fun thing Is i'm really learning campus, bust the sucky part? SO MANY PEOPLE. I did night classes in the spring, so I didn't notice it cause campus goes dead around Five, and summer, the same, not many people. But the school year. SO MANY. Its annoying to find some where to sit, but I've luckily gotten places :]

Whelp, the important thing is to stay positive and realize that even though I get to class at nine, and are there till like three,I don't see many people I went to high school with. That's lovely!

Lalala.

Busy, have fun with a video instead :]

Day One-ish

So I'm to tired to do an inspiration post. But instead I'll break down my day.

I started my day thinking I was only going to Four classes today but by the end of the day I was taking Five!

I got up at 6 o'clock this morning.
Took a shower
wasted time
went to school, went to the bookstore to find that I couldn't get my other book today. But good news? I don't need the book for like two weeks, ha. Tried to return a book for a class that got canceled, but couldn't do that 'cause the system was jacked up. SO, kept the heavy books. Trucked to the councilors office, set up an appointment to change my major for a SECOND Time, ha. Set appointment, went to first class. I'm glad my first class the teacher is upbeat. Its a business management class and the teacher is cut and dry but in the good way. He doesn't sugar coat, and he makes the class extremely passable. Then, my computer class. GONNA BE A CAKE WALK. Oh my lanta, it will be so easy its not even funny. After that, I have a break from 10:50-12:00. First I went to the business office to see if I could get into a business 101 that was canceled last thursday, and luckily I could! I got that done, and went along my way. Instead of actually going to have lunch like I should have, I ate a pop tart and sat in the C wing of the school reading my management book and taking notes. Yay for nutrition! My next class is a Theatre History class, and it does NOTHING towards my degree, but I really wanted to take it anyway, so I am, and the teacher is really nice. I have another break after that, an hour. Then I got to my math class where the teacher is odd to say the least. After that I have another break this time it'd three freaking hours! that sucks, I'm telling you. But it's only on mondays and I got my class in! So in total after my first semester at the school I will have 21 credits thanks to my 2 summer classes :]

anyway, im beat. Bed time? Yes.

Cheer Up

It doesn't matter how your day has sucked, Music can make it better.
Today it's old school country that's getting me!



Love this Music Video <3


I try to think about Elvis- Patty Loveless


My Give A Damn's Busted - Jo Dee Messina


Guys Do It All The Time - Mindy McCready


She Don't Know She's Beautiful -Sammy Kershaw

My Skin

Outfit breakdown;
Cardigan; Vintage
Shirt; Maurices
Scarf; Maruices
Shorts; AE

Walk a mile in my shoes, then you judge me. Before that you don't have a right to even imagine who I am. People are terrible, and its not cool. People feel if you poke them, and even if they don't show you, doesn't mean it didn't effect them. On a brighter note, I'm starting my fall classes tomorrow even though It's one less than I thought it was going to be, joy.

No one is alone :)

Inspirational thoughts for today?
No one is alone, remember that! With everyone going off to school, its a good thought to remember especially if your stuck in your home town going to a community college. I mean, it's saving me money, right? Oh, and I thought about this too; I won't fail out. I mean the community college I'm at is pretty much like a high school for adults & kids, so yeah, I've gotten an A in all the classes I've take (better than high school actually....) so I'm reminded of people who go to these big schools and can't end up handling it, fail out, and end up where I am. At least I'm stepping step by step, I mean I could do a university, but I chose for a few reasons to start at the community school I am at now. Its just always discouraging to say good bye to friends. Oh, and I found out on thursday that my Bus 101 class was canceled and the only one that is open is one that I have another class, boo. So that means I'm taking a THE 101,MGT 101, MAT 110 & CIS 101. I guess its not too bad since I've already got 6 credit hours, ha. But lets move on, yeah?

Outfit breakdown;
Jacket; Vintage 70's from the momma
Dress; AE
Shoes; dElias
Necklace; Pac Sun
Hair Piece; Icing

Shoulder

Outfit breakdown;
Shirt; Pac Sun
Cami; AE
Jeans; Kohls
Shoes; dElias

I wanted to close up the shirt, and when I did, I happened to be making a really stupid face. My camera was giving me hell all day with the automatic flash, and I thought it'd stopped. I got a few different up close shots too, but the fabric didn't fall as well as this one did, so I used it. Nothing much more interesting to say, ha.

Know My Name

SHANNON;
Shannon means "small, wise one".

Whelp, I'm short, and I'm pretty Wise, so that's legitimate, yeah?

The meaning of the name Shannon most probably refers to an ancient Celtic deity identified with a river in Ireland. The River Shannon is the principal river of Ireland. 240 mi. (386 km) long flowing SW from Northern Ireland to the Atlantic. The River Shannon presumably refers to the Goddess associated with the river, "Sionna" (pronounced SHAN-nen).[2] The Irish goddess sought out the hazelnuts of wisdom which were believed to contain éigse, the spirit and inspiration of poetry.

In Celtic mythology, the search for wisdom was usually made by a woman who found it in a river or well. Always, she is changed by the knowledge into a new being; a goddess.

There are several Irish legends accounting for the name Shannon. A well called Connla's Well existed under the sea that was filled with fish and either hazel or rowan trees, depending on which legend you are reading, dropped their nuts or berries, depending again on the legend, into the well. The salmon that ate the nuts or the berries were thought to gain great knowledge and wisdom. This made the fish very desirable and fishermen worked very hard to get and catch these.

Women were not allowed to eat these so-called "fish of knowledge or wisdom."

However, a brave rebel female named Shannon (spelled Sionnain in Gaelic), who some say is the daughter of the moon, ignored this rule and caught and ate one of the fish. Immediately upon this infraction, the well water rose up and carried Shannon to the Atlantic Ocean, creating the River Shannon.

I got that from Wiki 'cause I was too lazy to re-type it all.

But anyway, I've always thought this was really cool, the meanings behind names, zodiacs, that sort of thing.It's how how these things sort of are a part of you, and in some cases (like mine) really are legitimate. I love history, learning about the past, and philosophy, that sort of stuff just really interests me. Even some scientific stuff presented in the right context really draws me in too! But you know what I find is unfortunate? How people think they know you just because they know your name, yeah, how lame is that? I've learned a lot of the time that people grow; they change. Well, for the most part. Some asss-holes are just Ass-holes their whole life, but if you think about it, your learning, and forming yourself every day, now matter if your going to school or not. A day where you do not learn something, anything, is a day wasted!

Some people will always let their stubborn prideful selves get the better of them, and cause them to lose out on things, and that's always unfortunate!

Anyway, I really don't know where I was going with this today, I was just tired, and didn't wanna come up with an outfit post (I stayed in my jammies all day, haha.) so this is what came up!

Picture is of me/edited by me/ Don't use :]

FACT

Speak your mind, even if your voice is shaky ;]

Motivation Monday: UK

Who isn't inspired by the UK?
As a starter

Union Jack!





Harry Potter <3


Mumford & Sons


Jessie J


Ellie Goulding


Tea time. No matter what the heck is going on, the queen stops every day at 5pm and takes her tea.


Skins: The US version is risque for out T.v But the UK is so much better.







I feel like our music is having another "British Invasion" Like when the beatles came out everyone went crazy about the UK, well today we have Harry Potter, & the growing fame of Mumford & Sons, Ellie Goulding, and a lot of UK artists. I really enjoy it! Plus my roots are from there. My grandpa said somehow down the line were related to Ben Franklin, how cool is that?

Progression

I didn't post yesterday, but I think I made up for it the last few days with the major stuff I've got on here already. I was just to dang busy.

I messed with some masks/textures on this picture and I like the overall effect of it. But that's besides the point...

So my newsfeed is full of "Leaving for college!" That kinda stuff, and I look at it and laugh a bit at how nervous people are and in a year they will be excited they made the leap! But aside that I just got really busy around here with family stuff so its just been a bit jumbled the last few days.

The whole college thing doesn't scare me, even when I was there while I was "in" high school. I just got so used to people not being there during my night & summer classes, I'm going to be very distressed when I see all these faces that I went to high school with in the fall, I don't really want to see them. I didn't take a full class load in the spring, nor summer, and my dumb councilor back tracked me anyway, so a class I took this summer was a "Developmental" class, but guess what? I'd already taken the 101 class it was prepping me for. How silly is that? It doesn't matter, I passed it with an A, so whatever, it helped my GPA.

I've just realized that like a million people of my high school grad class are going to the same college, sure I knew in the back of my head they were, but there are a lot more than I thought there were going to be so you know...I'm just elated and all...But a good thing! My computer Class I have a good friend of mine in it, which is nice because we've both been too busy to hang out lately. So I'll get to see her there!

Anyway, onto the break down.
Cami; Maurices
Shirt; PacSun <3
Pants; AE
Shoes; dElias

I really love Pacific Sunwear (Pacsun) its got a lot of really cute things in it, and if you wait for them to go on sale, you can get 'em for a steal! :]

Blazer

School is starting soon, and I thought this was appropriate. I was always one of those kids that wanted uniforms, I thought they were adorable. You know, unless you have the ugly ones, haha.

Outfit breakdown:
Blazer; delias
Cami; AE
Necklace; Icing
Shoes; Jcp
Skirt; dElias


Tried to straighten my hair, actually did last night, then refused to straighten it again today to remove the ponytail mark that I slept in, haha.

Blue

A pretty Blue outfit today, with my other pair of toms :]
Breakdown:
Dress; Macy's
Shoes; Toms
Necklace; Icing
Hat; Icing

I love hats, and I rock them pretty well, so that makes me love them even more!

TOMS

Addicted to this ever loving song right now, its so catchy and easy to jam to.


I got two pairs of Toms, the glitter pair, obviously, and a pair of the classic grey. I haven't really worn them much, but I'm loving them so far. The outfit was really just what I had on today adding the shoes, so its kind of boring but none the less here is the break down

Hoodie; dElias
Necklace; Jucicy couture
Capris; AE
Shoes; Toms, obviously.

On a deeper note, I might be quitting the job I just got due to lack of time in the day, how depressing is that? On top of that, I really don't know how to go about it, and if I really should. But here in about two weeks I'll have a 16 credit semester that won't allow me to handle two jobs at the same time, and the new one I just got pays 2 dollars less a hour, so yeah. I don't know, lied. I know what I should do, I just am struggling with it, how silly is that? Anyway, Next post I'll use my other Toms and make some sort of interesting outfit other than one that I wallowed around in the houses in today. Cheers <3

Oh p.s;
What do you think of the picture quality? I'm using my fancy camera!

Pretty/Unpretty

I'm a super Gleek, and when I first heard this song I wasn't too impressed, but the more I heard it the more it started to become a go to song when I was feeling a bit down, and today is no exception. It can be really hard making decisions about life, and trusting in your own decisions.

I just need to stay positive!

I'll do an outfit post later, maybe.

The Best Day

Today is my mommies birthday, and that deserves a double post!

I was lucky when I was growing up that my mom was there for me when I needed her, but she always gave me enough freedom because she trusted me. I never really had a curfew growing up because she knew I wouldn't get into trouble, I just had to call and let her know when I was going to be home. That sort of freedom made things like drinking and drugs and all the bad stuff non-taboo for me. It just wasn't a big deal because it wasn't presented to me as that sort of thing. As a teenager, I never do that stuff and its because they treated me like an adult, and taught me that responsibility.

Taylor Swift is good at making at least one song on her CD's that I can't not cry during, and this song is it. My mom was always there when I was younger, reassuring me that it was going to be okay. I can remember playing in her clothes as a kid and that she was really the prettiest person I knew and that now I can still go into her closet and find cloths I want to wear. She's always been there for me, and I love her for that.

Its her birthday today, and she's not feeling all that good, which is a bummer. Her wisdom tooth is coming in on one side, and she's down with a headache until she's got and appointment today, that's kind of a lame birthday, but hopefully it will at least help her feel better.

Your mother is really your best friend, because when it boils down to it, family is the most important thing, and people don't realize that until it's too late.

Motivation Mondays: Music

Music. Music motivates me to do just about everything, ha. It can turn my bad day into a good one in no time flat! I'm feeling pretty she-woman songs lately, which is interesting. Lots of Ellie goulding because she's fantastic. I love her a lot. Her Style, her music, all of it is just amazing! I listen to a lot of different music, because its good. I like songs that mean something, not just running over street hoes and screaming my head off. I like some rock, sure, but I don't like the scream kind, I'm not to big a fan of my chemical romance cause they try to hard to be creepy, just not my cup of tea. I like a variety from techno to musical and day to day it changes!!

Watch Me

Follow Rivers

The Writer

Forgive You

Who You Are

I can't imagine my life with out music, it just wouldn't be worth much of anything would it? I don't think many people would argue that, music is amazing!

Oh, and have you noticed that some people's blogs are really boring? Like... creatively so. How dull is that?

Pink & Pearls

Ignore the wet hair, Ha. Work got me pretty busy today, and I'm beat.
Shirt: dElias
Dress: (used as skirt) Maurices
Shoes: JCP
Necklace: Vintage
Belt: Online

Not to excited with this one, but it turned out better than I thought. It sort of symbolized remembering that one day I want to travel, that working like crazy will get me there one day, so cross your fingers ;]
Plus, I liked the 50's retro feel it gives, pretty fancy if I do say so myself. I'm to tired to put anything deep on here tonight, sorry loves.

Mellow Yellow

Nothing much interesting to write today, so I'll just break down the outfit

Cardigan; Vintage
Shirt; Forever 21
Skirt; Maurices
Shoes; Jcpennys
Necklace; ICING

Just remember that confidence is beautiful, so be confident in yourself because the rest of the world it doesn't matter what they thing of you.

Hold On Hope

I feel like I'm not the only one who is stuck sort of in a spot lately. I think its because most the people I know are going into college and are really nervous. I mean its natural, right? But everyone seems to be either waiting on something, or stuck between something, so I'm going to start trying something! I actually got this inspiration from a friend's facebook status, how poetic right? It said

"Let go and Let God...Day 1"

I'm not the most religious person in the world, no. But I'm also sort of willing to give just about anything to try and let myself relax. I used to be a kid who went to awanas and my dad used to read the bible to me as a child, apparently I seriously loved it. He'd come in and read to me and we'd say prayers every night, but when I started getting older I started seeing people, and really seeing how mean they were. What baffled me was a friend I used to be really close with would do all these thing that were seriously against every principal of Christianity, and then she'd go to church every sunday and act like she was perfect. It really shook me. It was like how can she do that, and things seem to work out for her no matter what, even though she's kind of a whore, and really bitchy? It made me lose my faith in god, a lot.

Not to mention my family, how crazy they are, it just never made since. If god was suppose to be there for us, then why did all this stuff happen to me? Why could I never feel comfortable or welcomed in any church in this small stuck up town? Its pathetic and a lot of people use religion as an excuse, not me. I use it as something hopefully better, because if you don't believe in something, anything, rather that be a giant rabbit who vomits trees, it doesn't matter, if you can't believe in something it makes the world look pretty bleak, and in this day and age, we need something to look forward to.

So here is my new mission.

Lets start praying, lets bet he role model of a real christian to people who really aren't. To those who bad mouth someone one day, and turn around and praise god, lets be the one who sympathizes with those people, the ones who struggle. Lets not answer to anyone but ourselves and our own path, well, and his path that is. I don't care what you believe but I'm not here to say there isn't something, there is, there has to be and if you can't see that, the I pity you, no matter who you are.


I need to start feeling safe, and feeling like what I'm doing is actually going to be worth it one day, and that I can do things. This even if it doesn't work, will at least let me know I tried.

Flackback Friday

Out Fit Breakdown:
Dress; Vintage from my moms closet
Vest; AE
Shoes; Target
Necklace; Pacsun
Hairpiece; Icing
Bag; Macy's


This outfit is so 90's. I've been feeling pretty nestalgic lately you know the whole college thing, the whole I'm getting older and my parents don't really need to hold my hand anymore, its all so exciting and scary all in one. Its hard to grasp that I'm old enough to do basically everything by myself, and I'm nearly at that point. Its just crazy. There is no doubt that I'm a worrier. I worry about every single thing, and It makes me pretty paranoid with new things, like my new job. I was told to go in last night for some week night training and I did, Janet called me the day prior and said to come in from 6:30-8:30, Do I did. I went in at 6:30, and they boggled my mind. We have an additional like 25+ pieces of sushi that are made on week nights, and its just...wow. I worked with sushi some of the night, but then I got really excited cause they had me work with desert and salads. YES. I loved it. It was just fun, and I got to plate things and make them pretty and learn how to make a lot of different things.

I feel like I'm doing okay, and especially with the desert station, cause Diego told me I was going good, haha. But I still feel paranoid, Like I'm doing something wrong when in fact I'm just new and I have to learn it with time. I know that, and Larry told me that, so why am I still freaking out about it? who knows.

Back to the outfit, the 90's are nostalgic to me. They were a lot of my childhood, and I realize that I'm always thinking back to it. I love the music, and the whole Maxi dress thing is coming back, and the grunge look is very in. My mom had this dress in her closet and I think it would be really adorable if it was cut a bit shorter from a Maxi to just a shorter dress, but she'd kill me if I cut it, that isn't a remake its from the 90's. Ha. Its really comfortable too, so I suppose that's why people are starting to wear them, but with caution. Not all Maxi dresses look good on everyone, you have to add something to them to keep them from looking like a moo-moo, and no one wants that!

In other news, I have a break! My summer has been full of class, and I have a break until the end of the month when I go back to class which means I need to go run through my classes and get my books. How not exciting is that? Hopefully these fall classes will be as successful as both my summer classes!

This blog has turned into just a really good stress reliever for me. Its pretty helpful to keep my thoughts in check, and all that. Plus its actually helping me a bit like I wanted it to :]


WOW! I just wrote my title in, and I nailed the day I decided to do another retro post, it's friday and that whole "Flashback friday" People are always doing, haha.

A Good day

My summer classes just ended, and I finished both with an A!
I'm so pumped and excited and Its just makes me happy :]

I also work tonight which makes me happy an nervous at the same time, Its odd. I can do the job but I'm still new so I feel nervous doing it still. Its just silly! Anyway, I'm excited to have some sort of kind of break from class these next two weeks or so until I start my fall classes.

Just remember that through all the stress and the agitation if you try, it really does pay off. It's always good to stay positive!

Fall

Anyone else ready for fall?
I love summer weather, the warm, wearing skirts and dresses without layers.
But I really love fall for that reason. I love layers, and sweaters. I will have a super hard time this fall wearing pants again, I love to wear dresses and skits and short. The whole pant thing? I'm gonna have to get back into the swing of it, so I decided to do a blog post with them, ha. I'm ready for this super hot weather to go away and smell the scent of rain on a cool day with leaves on the ground. BEST SMELL EVER. <3

Outfit Breakdown:
Shirt; AE
Cardigan; dElias
Shoes; Target
Necklace; Vintage
Pants; AE

Femininity

FEMININITY IS NOT WEAKNESS. IT REQUIRES GREAT STRENGTH OF CHARACTER FOR A WOMAN TO BE GENTLE IN AN AGE THAT SCREAMS FOR HER TO BE OTHERWISE.
~ - Joshua Harris




I love to feel girly, yet I know that I will not be put down for being a girl. Despite the world advancement women are still seen as weaker. Sure, I understand that a man is physically stronger than most women simply because the way there make up is, but that doesn't mean its all men. I've noticed that women still have that please a guy mentality with out even trying to have it. We have reached a status of CEO's and higher up parts but did you know women CEO's are paid 80 cents less than a male just for the fact that they are female? Its crazy, but true.

Women are still looked at in movies as "Save the damsel" yadda yadda yadda.

Its just thoughts that I've been thinking, you know.

I love to be girly, it makes me feel empowered, because well, it does in a lot of cases.


Outfit break down
Dress: dElias
Shoes: Internet, lol. Yay for Oxfords!
Cardigan: Vintage <3
Necklace: Vintage from my great aunt

LaBelle

Poem that was in a Draft

Thorntons walk <3


DID YOU KNOW THINGS SAVE IN A DRAFT?
This was written back in march, and i just found it. Hahhaha.


Lets take a whack at something I haven't done in a while; poetry.

Every time its so very hard,
starlight its time to say goodbye
I will leave you here
with a piece of my past, a shard
so precious, I will leave it
and let it fade away
so please take it and hold it for a bit
just hold on because I forgot how

do not let it wash away
I truly might want it one day
that day when it all makes since again
the time when life doesn't seem a mess
and maybe I will have conquered my quests

but,
what if I do not?
oh star so bright do not turn away
stay and please keep my mind away
keep it away from the days
so long and boring
and bring me hope for a morning of possible glory

the shining light you give
shines on me,
like a secret trade we did
I gave you sorrow and pain
and in return you gave me that wonder of a kid
that wonder I have missed for so very long
but,

starlight it is time to say goodbye
its time for my day to begin
and my mind to focus, but not about whats within

please watch for me,
the memories that were once dear,
and give me strength to hold on to the near
to go on each day with the fake facade

Starlight you are my closest friend
you do not ask why I send my thoughts away
you simply listen and hold them from my day
so I can continue like the rest of the world
and dear starlight i will one day help you
and shine like the person that you thought I could
so please be patient dear friend,
i cannot hold the world quite yet
so help me until that day where i can stand on my own

starlight I cherish you
for helping me clear my mind


That wasn't to bad I guess >.>

Motivation Monday:Braids

"More powerful than the will to win is the courage to begin." ~Unknown
Mondays are generally the bane of the week. It starts the new, and ends the old. Meaning, questions appear about "What didn't I get done last week?" Or "Why is it monday, can it be friday?". Society dislikes mondays, haha. I would like to keep myself from disliking them myself. A good thing is that I get paid on mondays, so that's always cheerful! But, I know that I am guilty of sitting there thinking of things that I have to do this coming week, or things I didn't get to last week. So I decided to do a posting of Motivation stuff that has to do with myself granted it be with fashion, travel, books, whatever! It will be a good thing for me~!

First topic? Braids.
I love them, they can be fancy, relaxed, cutesy, rock, anything. They are amazing, and I love 'em even more when you can wrap some feathers in them!
(Pics found on We<3It)









Got to love those Braids!!